My father just recently passed away and sometimes I feel like a terrible person because I do not morn his loss. My father will never win a trophy for father of the year but he was always a great family supporter. Was that enough? For men in that generation I guess that’s all that was expected. He was a big part of who I am today. Independent because I saw how my mother relied on my father to take care of all the finances. I stand up for myself because I would get angry when he would get drunk. I finally announced to my parents that I would NEVER go out to parties again with them. Hard worker because my father showed me that hard work allows you to support your family and that is what good parent does. Adventurous because growing up girls were never allowed to do the same things boys could. I needed to show him he was wrong. Trust Issues because if you do not feel safe and secure with your own father how can you ever trust any other man. I could go on and on.
So in a weird way I have a lot to thank and appreciate my father for but right now I have resentment for a lot of other things I’m not ready to voice. I’m I a terrible person for not morning his loss? I know I’m not.. but I’ll let others pass judgement since they have only seen the cover of my book.